Welcome to a mind-expanding trip down the rabbit hole into the wonderful world of reflective writing, as I try to answer the age old question, “So what really did just happen?”. This follows on from my last post introducing reflection for self-development,. Be prepared for this to go from the mundane to the surreal and back again. Reflection tends to be like that – you feel like your mind is about to come apart at the seams only for everything to come into clearer focus than before.
Understanding your process
In study and work, reflection often appears under its pseudonym, “evaluation”. Both words mean to look back over what has passed, to identify what was valuable and what was unhelpful, and to consider how you might do things differently in the future to get a better result more easily. For projects and essays where you are asked to reflect on your work, various thinkers have worked out a series of useful steps to get you started, which are summarised in what has become known as Gibbs’ learning cycle or Gibbs’ reflective cycle:
We are encouraged to think about events, feelings, what was valuable and what was frustrating. It is here that reflection gets deep. Once you start picking apart what you/everyone in a group did/did not do, how well that worked, or didn’t, and how all of these things made you feel, you may find that you discover new layers to the puzzle. It can feel like peeling an onion, as you discover subtle nuances in the situation that were not obvious before you started. Working your way onwards and inwards, you find that your thoughts, actions and feelings interacted. Which was driving your actions – what you thought or what felt most comfortable at the time? Why did that feel comfortable – were you attracted to a familiar way or working or avoiding something that worried you? Was it the best way? How did things turn out?
This process is always set out by lecturers to sound like a clear and systematic process, logical and absolute. In my experience, it feels a lot more like that described in this hypnotically esoteric song by Noel Harrison.
Onwards and inwards
You may well come around to questioning your original statements about what happened as your understanding gets deeper. You might decide that the way your group mates felt about one another before the project started might have had a bigger effect on how you all approached the project than anything else, or it might be that a pivotal idea came up and was ignored or seized upon and that this led to conflict or success. My point is that you do not know where reflection is going to take you when you start out.
It is a journey into your past but also into the unknown, as you explore the individual facts you already know but have yet to connect and form into a meaningful, self-consistent picture. You will need to be brave enough to be completely honest with yourself about what was happening. Always ask whether the picture you are forming makes sense. If it doesn’t feel right, something is missing or being misrepresented – something else was going on instead or as well. Given how many ways you can recreate the past from a few remembered memories and facts, your feelings are most likely to be the things that guide you in putting together an accurate picture. What feels ‘right’ generally is.
Once you are done with the seemingly endless cycle of revisiting and analysing facts, feelings and recollections, you can decide what lessons you have learned that can be generalised to what you do in future. It is the ways we decide to change after consciously reflecting on past experiences that helps us to develop and increase our capability over time as both scholars and professionals.
Finally, you might remember we called this a ‘cycle’ earlier on. The process never ends, because once you have changed how you work based on what you learned from what you did before, you will start applying it to what you do next and then repeat the cycle, reflecting on that and improving, refining and enhancing your understanding of what works and what doesn’t under different circumstances. You will discover that you do not even have to wait until something is over before you start reflecting on it. You may find that reflection eventually becomes a habit of mind, a process that carries on continually ticking over as you work, as you question why you are doing things the way you are, and if there might be a better way. Eventually, you will eventually develop a highly nuanced and sophisticated understanding of how to get things done, and it is this that will help make you successful in whatever you choose to do in life.